aquadragon752

So yeah. It's been over 3 years since I've done... pretty much anything on my account. I've been going through a bit of a rough patch when it comes to art and stuff, and my rate of completing pictures I've started, if I had to estimate, would be about... 1%. Yeah.
I'm trying to improve this. And improve my updating too.
So I'm starting with this journal!
I can't promise that this'll actually happen, but I'm gonna try!
So an update on my life.
This school year, to sum it up in a single word... shit.
Right before school started (1 week) my dog, Quincy, died. This was REALLY upsetting. We've had him for ten years, so he's been a major part of my life. Even now, it's hard to write/type this.
Then, about a month later, from out of the ABSOLUTE blue, my parents announced their divorce. And when I say from out of the blue, I mean it. I was shocked. So was everyone I told who knows my parents.
My dad, who I've always been really close to, left my mom. He still lives nearby, and I can talk to him and everything, but that's pretty much what happened. My and my brother are pretty much grown up, so he doesn't have to pay child support or anything, but it's still... messy.
And now we're selling the house I've been living in for 14 years. So to sum it up- pretty much my entire childhood is destroyed. So yeah- shit.
However, really surprisingly- I've been doing... ok. I'm not in a puddle in the corner.
On the bright side of this year, I've changed locations at work, and now I love it soooooo much more. I love pretty much everything about it.
On the other hand, I've been pretty unhappy with pretty much everything I've drawn. But I did just draw something pretty good! So yeah. It's just a sketch, but oh well. Unfortunately, my scanner also died. So hopefully I can get my mom's to work.
So for now...
Ta-ta~

So, just wanted to sort of update what's been going on in my life.
so, i've said how i've been having computer troubles. well, they popped back up again. the old virus on my old comp reared it's ugly head again. and my motherboard on my new computer is still fried. i'll be shipping that out to get a replacement tomorrow.so right now, i'm on my dad's old netbook. and it's tiny! i tried working in sai, and i can't even see the lower part of it. like the layer bar, i can see only half of 1 layer at a time. not good. so hopefully i'll get it back soon so i can do more arts.
and i have one more final that i have to get around to doing sometime before sunday night. i've been putting it off.
edit:wow, just realized how stuck up and ungrateful this sounds. i'm sorry. i am very grateful to have any computer. i'm sorry i can sound so bratty.
i've been reading 1/2 Prince. Oh my god it is fantastic. i like GuiPrince. if you read it, tell me what pairing you like.
me and my sister have been writing alot lately. aka-i come up with ideas and she types it out. or she'll dictate to me. there are 15 stories in the current folder. and five and a half of them have degraded into lemons. of course. half because it's not really a lemon. it's just one person, so... and then the story continues on.
the longest one we've got is 23 pages long. with 3 lemons. yeah.
and somethings wrong and i can't select my mood. so i guess i'm... bored.
i get bored so easily. i have to have something occupying my hands, my mind, and my ears. if not, one of four things.
1) find something to do
2) space out.
3) sleep
4) freak out. aka-fidget and do random things. one such example- walking around in small circles. or lying on the ground and rolling around.
and yet i don't want to do anything right now. not in the mood to do anything that is. maybe i'll go through my pictures, sorting out images that give me ideas from over 40 thousand pics on my hard drive. right now i've narrowed it down to around 5.5 thousand. yeah. i need to narrow it down a little more.
watching Ghost Hunters. and getting freaked out. yep. and yet i can't stop watching. and it's not good since i have two ghosts in my closet.
i need to work on my comic. but i'm also thinking of starting another one, for another story that we've been working on.

hey, so. i'm not dead.
warning-this ended up being a rant.
unfourtunatly, right now i can't drawr. at all. everything comes out horrible. ;n;
so i've been helping my sister write. that is, i give her ideas and reactions.
however, much to my displeasure, all of the stories she's written lately have dissolved into lemons! why must you do this to me?! they're my kids! i don't wanna read that stuff! TnT
so i've also been playing kingdom hearts. and i am very proud of myself. i'm almost to the end of the game. and i got up to hades in the hades tournament. now, you have to understand, i stink at video games. always have. so this is pretty big for me.
and i've been reading manga.
oh, about my comp. well, in my last journal i told you guys that my comp was deadish. turns out it had some major hardware problem, but it is covered by warenty. well, you know how i was using my dad's netbook? that got a virus to. yeah. so that's at the shop too, but they say it's fine. so i stole the desktop from my brother. unfourtunatly it's about 10 years old and has a horrible sound system. and he complained to no end.
but, then i remembered my sis' old comp, that was buried in our closet, so i dug that out. the battery is pretty much shot and it had a virus, but it works. (oh yeah, my sister was the one using all of the comps when they got the virus/broke down) and, i actually managed to get rid of the virus. i think. i just had to run a startup disk.
so, here's my current situation. i need to pay to get both of the comps out of the shop. and my car needs a new IMA, which is gonna cost me $2,800. and i'm paying half of my way through collage. and i only have one permanant shift at work. i've been picking up as many shifts as i can.
and before you say my sister should pay for the comps, she has no money. she doesn't have a job. aaaand the comp is mine. and i took the netbook. so it's my responsiblity.
so i'm feelin' down. but i'm still ~alive~! and i still feel better than i did two years ago, for which i'm very greatful. i know my drawrings will come back to me. for now i'm stocking up on ideas and ref pics. and tolerate my sister. and she is no longer allowed to use the internet without supervision.
so, this journal was basically a rant.

so, my comp has broken down. again. why do i have such rotten luck with computers. so i lost the last like... month to two months worth of work. (don't remember the last time i backed it up. i'll check in a little bit.) but i do know i lost at least three stories i was working on. at least i remember them somewhat, so i can redo them. i havn't done any art on the comp in a long time, so i don't think i lost anything, unless it was just me colouring some of other peoples linearts. i think.
the screen is always black. i've tried restarting it. if i let it run out of batteries and then turn it on, it gives me a different screen. it looks as though it's waiting for a command. if this has ever happened to anyone, if you could give me advice i would be really greatful. for now i'm on a little netbook. it's soooo small! but at least i have something. besides my iPod that is. not very good for watching movies on.
have i mentioned how much i both love and hate netflix? i love it cuz of all the movies and shows i can watch, then it goes and deletes them! arg! ahfoiragsbjksadfsasdg!
right now i've gone back to a VCR and am watching Fantasia to try and cheer me up.
oh yes, the rest of my week. had two tests. got 70 something on both of them. yuck. then on thursday, i got to hang with the guy i like. only to find out later that he really likes someone else. then i went to skiing class. normally i have lots of fun. i was on a chair lift, bored, so i went to get my ipod out of my pocket.
aaaaand my keys fell out of my pocket. i'm super greatful to everyone who helped me. we looked for 30 min. my hands just about froze since i was searching with bare hands so i could feel them better. i did end up finding them. luckily. i really wanted to buy them hot cocoa or something to thank them for it, but i is poor. so i'ma make cookies or something to thank them.
ugh this comp is hard to use! >n<
well, got a new idea for a chara, looking at my fish. and actually started to drawr something pretty good! it's not the new chara, but one of my kids, Tsubaki.
ah! and another idea! how to keep my kids in the same school when they're 18 and up! the school is also a collage. boyah! thankies Fantasia! even though i'm going to skip this next part 'cuz i don't like it. it's the one with the dinosaurs. i also skipped the one with micky mouse. don't like either of them. or the very last one... scary! the dino one is scary too. both the music, the story, and the animation.nope. but love the one with Betoveen's 7th. and the one with the Nutcracker.the one with the hippos, ostriges, elephants, and crocidal is really wierd. and yes, i know i spelt those wrong. deal with it.
well, i guess that's enough ranting for one day.
hope your life is better than mine currently is. *huggs*

~VAMPIRE~

[ ]You rather be pale than tan.
[ ] You like to eat or drink red things.
[ ] You're lustful/sexual.
[ ] When you're kissing someone, you tend to bite them.
[ ] You're dark, mysterious, and seductive.
[X] You've tasted your own blood before and liked it.
[ ] Being out in the sun too long makes you feel weak.
[ ] You're graceful, light, AND can appear threatening or dangerous to others.
[ ] You have incredible charm and can get people to do nearly anything.
[ ] You're more active at night.

Total:  1


~INCUBUS/SUCCUBUS~

[ ] You're incredibly lustful/sexual.
[ ] Sex is almost always on your mind.
[ ] You could make someone fall completely in love with you by merely kissing them.
[ ] You burn through lovers quickly.
[ ] If your best friend had a lover that appealed to you, you'd gladly do anything you could to take them from your friend and not feel guilty about doing so.
[ ] You can make love with someone and drop them in the same breath.
[ ] If you don't "feed" your lust, you go insane.
[ ] You have strong/long nails.
[ ] You could get nearly anyone you want.
[\] You tend to be the dominate one in a relationship.

Total: .5


~WEREWOLF~

[X] You have a bad temper.
[ ] You're incredibly physically strong and fast.
[X] You love the moon.
[X] You're very loyal.
[X] If you love someone, you'll do whatever you possibly can to protect them.
[X] You would go on a devastated rampage should your lover be harmed in any way.
[X] You like dogs.
[ ] You're fairly sturdy in stature.
[X] You're either a good leader or a solitary person.
[X] You have a hard time controlling yourself half of the time.

Total: 8


~NEKO(half-cat)/WERECAT~

[ ] You love cats.
[ ] You're light and agile.
[ ] You could fall off of anything and always land on your feet.
[ ] You like gymnastics.
[ ] You love to eat seafood.
[X] You're affectionate and cozy.
[X] If someone is able to sneak up on you and startle you, you nearly leap out of your skin or swat at them.
[X] You like yarn.
[ ] You like chasing things.
[ ] You're an excellent hunter.

Total: 3


~ZOMBIE~

[X] You're an outcast.
[ ] You feel as if you're not truly alive.
[ ] You'll moan when you're hurt rather than scream and cry.
[X] You tend to zone out.
[ ] You don't feel very smart.
[ ] You like worms.
[ ] You like taking things slowly.
[ ] You like odd foods.
[ ] You prefer to suffer in silence.
[ ] You don't get much sleep.

Total: 2


~GHOST/PHANTOM~

[X] You're invisible.
[ ] You have an oddly eerie presence.
[ ] You can send chills down a person's spine just by looking at them.
[ ] You have messy hair that is partially/completely in your face.
[ ] You're incredibly gentle.
[ ] You're very shy around someone you find attractive.
[X] You tend to simply disappear when no one's looking.
[ ] You enjoy scaring people.
[ ] You like the indoors.
[ ] You are deeply connected to the ones you love no matter what happens.

Total: 2


~GHOUL~

[ ] You will eat just about anything.
[ ] You like to attack people verbally or physically.
[ ] You are thrilled if you can make someone bleed.
[ ] If you were with someone, you wouldn't care if you hurt them as long as you're getting what you want out of them.
[ ] You like stalking people.
[ ] You find it fun to crawl into tight, small, cramped, dirty spaces.
[X] You get hungry easily.
[ ] You like torture.
[ ] You live to hurt people.
[X] You like the idea of being insane.

Total: 2


~WITCH~

[X] You're into Wicca/paganism.
[X] You like magical objects.
[X] You believe in magic/can perform it.
[ ] You perform odd rituals on a daily basis.
[ ] People find you intolerably cruel.
[ ] You enjoy manipulating people.
[X] You feel deeply in touch with nature and hate industrialization.
[ ] You love black cats.
[ ] You practice voodoo.
[X] You tend to laugh hysterically while picking on someone you find attractive.

Total: 5


~SHAPESHIFTER~

[X] You have different personalities.
[ ] Your style could change from Goth to preppy in the same second.
[ ] You're fickle.
[ ] You have more than one lover.
[ ] You're unpredictable.
[ ] You would change yourself entirely to fit in/get a date.
[ ] You are fond of many different things.
[X] You can easily get out of trouble by changing your demeanor.
[X] You often say one thing and mean another.
[X] You like to leave your clothes on the floor after taking them off.

Total: 4


~DEMON~

[X] You have a very bad temper.
[ ] You're usually angry.
[ ] You have to make other people miserable with every breath that you take.
[ ] You worship Satan.
[ ] You like pentagrams.
[ ] You love to mess with people's heads.
[ ] You could do just about anything bad to someone and feel proud.
[ ] You laugh when other people are hurt.
[ ] Physically harming someone turns you on.
[ ] You respond to an insult by viciously attacking the other person.

Total: 1


~ANGEL~

[ ] You're a very good person.
[ ] You take care with everything you do.
[X] You can be extremely serious.
[ ] You're gentle and kind to even your worst enemies.
[ ] You cannot hold a grudge against anyone.
[X] You would gladly endure anything for the sake of the ones you love.
[/] You're a virgin/have never kissed anyone.
[/] People see you as being very pure.
[ ] You are obedient and follow rules without question.
[ ] You love God.

Total: 3


~FAERIE/ELF~

[ ] You enchant people.  
[ ] You like organic things.
[ ] You're almost always smiling.
[ ] You love the world around you.
[X] You get attached to animals easily.
[ ] You're a walking-talking chick-flick/prince charming.
[ ] You fall in love easily.
[ ] You have a very bright/bubbly/friendly personality.
[ ] You don't HATE anyone.
[X] You like long hair.

Total: 2


results:
1   VAMP
.5  INCUBUS
8   WEREWOLF
3   NEKO
2   ZOMBIE
2   GHOST
2   GHOUL
5   WITCH
4   SHAPESHIFTER
1   DEMON
3   ANGEL
2   FAERIE/ELF

well, i'm a werewolf. not really a huge suprise. it's the closest thing to a fox on here! ^u^
maybe i'll make a meme....